Notes on Tusk, First Draft

Fleetwood Mac was the synergistic link between the many 'Storms' within my psyche during Dec / Jan. Why? Tusk opened the door. Tusk Remastered threw away the key.

- Joan Didion, in The White Album. She's living in this crazy big house in Los Angeles and going crazy herself. People come in and out endlessly, tons of random strange people, musicians etc. And she talks about this weird time in life and listening to "Visions of Johanna" and "Lay Lady Lay" and I think about this while listening to Tusk. I think about what Carl said his parents and their friends thought about Fleetwood Mac in the context of their time: Fleetwood Mac was always on, always there, but never really this pop radio thing. It was just always playing, this constant undercurrent. Rumors is the highest selling record of all time - 30 million copies have been sold. Tusk was the disastrous follow-up, at only 4 million copies sold.

- i think about other musical obsessions i have had, and how they didn't run as deep. perhaps this is because their catalogue is smaller. see nina simone, nico

- think about tusk vs tusk remastered, "sara" and its soaring peaks, additional verses. the fact that this song may be about an abortion, and the baby may have been don henley's.

- trying to replace the fleetwood mac obsession, first with r&B (alicia keys, usher, r kelly instead) then the smiths


The Mystical Experience and the Rise of New Age
Chorus from "Angel"
So I close my eyes softly
Til I become that part of the wind
That we all long for sometime








From Wikipedia / Self-actualization:
People who are self actualized have had peak experiences. Peak experiences are situations that are so intense that the person loses all sense of self and they find themselves in the flow of the event. These are often religious or mystical experiences.

8. The mystic experience, the oceanic feeling. Self-actualising people commonly have mystic or `peak' experiences or times of intense emotions in which they transcend self. During a peak experience, they experience feelings of ecstasy, awe, and wonder with feelings of limitless horizons opening up, feelings of unlimited power and at the same time feelings of being more helpless than ever before. The experience ends with the conviction that something extremely important and valuable has happened so that the person is to some extent transformed and strengthened by the experience that has a carry-over into everyday life.

-major themes in the Stevie Nicks songs: crystals, building houses, loss, the witch, ascension.
- "Planets of the Universe" "Crystal" "Sisters of the Moon"




Versus Self-Destruction
- Fleetwood Mac, during the production of Tusk, which cost over $1 million to make did a legendary amount of cocaine. They were all sexually involved with each other. they are writing about each other.